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19th September, 2008
11:50 am

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Feeling Better
Thank you for all the message of support yesterday. I was touched by how many there were, and I won't reply to them all individually, but you're all lovely, lovely people.

I forced myself to put some clothes on and went out to drop off a 4x5 slide from my Utah trip at the photo processing place, pay a cheque in and get chocolate. The photo processing place had gone out of business (damn you, digital!), so I need to find somewhere else that will do my slides (doing my own E6 processing is a bit more hardcore than I want to be), but I got the cheque paid in, which means I now owe the banks slightly less money after our holiday, and picked myself up a bar of Dairy Milk and Red Bull. While true connoisseurs will no doubt scoff on the authenticity of Dairy Milk's claim to the "chocolate" label, I find it to be the most wonderful comfort food.

I then walked the short distance back home, noticed my Boa constrictor had shat, cleaned that up, laundered the towels I use to line her vivarium, fed my fish in the garden pond and pottered gently in the garden for a bit, deadheading stuff and throwing worn out bits of water lilly on the compost heap.

After half an hour of that, I was no longer feeling the crushing "make the world go away, must curl up under blanket and never come out" feelings, but I was physically exhausted, so I went back in and curled up in bed anyway, downloading free (mostly) apps for my iPod until zoeimogen arrived on a train her big red bike-of-dyke from London and the_local_echo arrived home from work.

I'm still feeling emotionally and physically fragile, but I guess it will pass. My nose is feeling better by the day, although what mucus comes out (the right nostril is still blocked, presumably by clots) is still a kind of reddy-brown from old blood. Apparently I make "interesting" snoring sounds at night, but it feels like I'm sleeping well.

It took a year or more to fully recover from sex reassignment. I guess the extent to which that was major replumbing compared to this had instilled in me a sort of assumption that I could basically "walk it off" this time, but my body feels otherwise. I'm going to try and pay attention to it.

Thanks once again, everybody. You're all wonderful.

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From:zoeimogen
Date:19th September, 2008 11:05 am (UTC)
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until zoeimogen arrived on a train from London

I've heard it said that certain powerful bikes "pull like a train" and the VTR1000 certainly is powerful, but I would point out several important differences from a train:

- It only has two wheels
- It goes on the road
- It's cheaper than the train.

I'd have thought the motorcycle leathers were a bit of a giveaway, to be honest. I know some people are critical of the safety record of our rail network, but going on the train in leathers with armour in and an expensive helmet is a bit overkill, I feel.

HTH, HAND.
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From:auntysarah
Date:19th September, 2008 11:06 am (UTC)
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Oh yeah, you were on the bike, weren't you?

My brain isn't working. Be nice!
From:squigglefish
Date:19th September, 2008 12:00 pm (UTC)
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Omg, bike ftw! :D

(Although I prefer classic or naked style bikes, personally :P)
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From:woodpijn
Date:19th September, 2008 11:06 am (UTC)
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Yay, glad you're feeling better.

While true connoisseurs will no doubt scoff on the authenticity of Dairy Milk's claim to the "chocolate" label, I find it to be the most wonderful comfort food.
Oh, me too, completely. Best chocolate ever.
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From:asknosecrets
Date:19th September, 2008 11:10 am (UTC)
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Be nice to your body. Listen to her. *Nods* Or else we'll withhold spankings.
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From:auntysarah
Date:19th September, 2008 11:13 am (UTC)
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Or else we'll withhold spankings

Noooooooooooo!
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From:asknosecrets
Date:19th September, 2008 11:14 am (UTC)
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YES! Yes we will. And I'm sadistic enough to mean that. ;)
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From:auntysarah
Date:19th September, 2008 11:22 am (UTC)
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If you're too mean, I won't write on the filter about what happened to me on Saturday (and it was really quite special - I haven't screamed like that in ages!)
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From:asknosecrets
Date:19th September, 2008 11:23 am (UTC)
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Come on, you know you love me when I'm mean.
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From:zoefruitcake
Date:19th September, 2008 11:11 am (UTC)
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Be gentle with yourself, but I'm glad doing stuff eased the mental stress x
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From:phonemonkey
Date:19th September, 2008 11:14 am (UTC)
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I don't mean this to diminish the fact that you just had a general anaesthetic and they stuck a knife into your head, but I would also point out that there really is a lot of it about right now. I think it's probably a combination of the weather and the recession, but pretty much I know has at least a mild case of make-it-all-go-away-and-stop-hurting at the moment.
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From:phonemonkey
Date:19th September, 2008 11:15 am (UTC)
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So you're not a freak. (At least, not the bad sort...)
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From:auntysarah
Date:19th September, 2008 11:20 am (UTC)
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*teehee*

Being the right sort of freak is rather nice, methinks :-)
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From:auntysarah
Date:19th September, 2008 11:31 am (UTC)
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there really is a lot of it about right now.

It can't be helping, for sure.
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From:phonemonkey
Date:19th September, 2008 11:40 am (UTC)
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Yeah, really. I ended up opening my precious bottle of Xanax stash the other night in need of comforting numbness, and I've been trying to stash those away for December's visit to the in-laws.

That should have been "pretty much everyone I know" in the comment, obviously.
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From:natalie_456
Date:19th September, 2008 12:31 pm (UTC)
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glad your feeling a little better Sarah, but i shall still offer e-hugs
*hugs* x
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From:capybyra
Date:19th September, 2008 12:42 pm (UTC)

Glad you are up and about.

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One of my friends here describes most chocolate as Orwell did. Tasting akin to the smoke from a rubbish fire. Then again-on my side of the big pond we've a government trying to make us compliant proles before the upcoming election. So we won't flinch when told of the chocolate ration being raised to 20 grams from the thirty it had been last fortnight. I do hope that my admittedly odd humor makes you laugh but not at risk of it hurting ok?
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From:plumsbitch
Date:19th September, 2008 03:18 pm (UTC)
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Somehow missed this yesterday, so am glad you're feeling a bit better, and listening to your body and letting yourself heal in all ways is a good plan.

Any kind of surgery can still be a shock to the system in all sorts of ways, and that's not crazy or weird, it's very common.

Tea and care from me.

CXx
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From:emperor
Date:19th September, 2008 04:26 pm (UTC)
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Keep getting well!
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From:moonspark
Date:19th September, 2008 04:27 pm (UTC)
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*hugs*

Glad you are better.
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From:klonecaid
Date:19th September, 2008 04:38 pm (UTC)
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hope you recover fully quick

I need to take my 5x4 plate camera out sometime, when it's not raining...

Seriously, E-6 is *easy*. You just have 4 sets of chem to make up rather than 2. Fill the sink with water, get them all, stabilised at 37C, and process as usual in a dark tank, swapping after the given times. You can reuse the chems a fair few times too.
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From:auntysarah
Date:19th September, 2008 04:46 pm (UTC)
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process as usual

Processing as usual involves giving them to the guy behind the counter and him saying, "Tomorrow morning OK?"
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From:auntysarah
Date:19th September, 2008 04:47 pm (UTC)
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By the way, you don't know anyone who wants to buy a Mamiya 7 and 43mm ultrawide, do you?
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From:klonecaid
Date:21st September, 2008 02:43 pm (UTC)
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I might, what sort of asking price?
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From:auntysarah
Date:22nd September, 2008 10:35 pm (UTC)
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We could probably get over 900 pounds the pair on eBay...
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